Homeschooling

 We've almost done another lap around the sun so let's see if we have some things to say. 

First things first, I've not contacted my mother since I wrote her that last email in September. She has obviously reached out but completely ignored my email, which was to be expected. But that's about all the time I will dedicate to her, I'm really doing my best to move on.

What I wanted to talk about is homeschooling.
Our youngest has been having some tough times at school lately and it's been breaking my heart. She's my carbon copy, adhd included (self-diagnosed) and is clearly dealing with the same issues I had. Short attention span and what they would refer to as 'being lazy'. She sometimes just waits for other people to do the work for her. But that's only because they let her get away with it.
But that's not all, her "bestie" has turned into a 'frenemy'. She can go from being her best friend one day to completely ignoring her the next day while spouting negative comments towards her. And just like me, she's very sensitive so I'm 99% sure it's affecting everything, including her work at school.
We decided to have her change schools and contacted a smaller school, where a lot of the neighbouring kids go. Sadly they told us that the class for next year is already full. We had all set our minds to changing school and she was really looking forward to it. So now we had to crush her again by saying she would stay in the school she's in now. 

It's also not just that one friend that's making us want to change school, the new principal is just giving off all the wrong vibes. First off, she look as if she's walking a catwalk on a daily basis, with stiletto heels that definitely cut off all circulation to her toes. But what bothers me the most is that it seems like media attention and getting the school's name out there, is all she cares about. Getting on tv or radio is where she shines! Whenever a student accomplishes anything outside of school, a picture of her with said student will promptly be uploaded to the schools social media. As if it's a school accomplishment.
But that's not all, every communication towards parents is either full of grammatical mistakes or contains the wrong information. As someone who's literally gone to school to become a secretary, these things bother me immensely. A school should know how to construct any type of communication. But I digress.

So now that there's no chance of having her change school, it's been effecting both mine and her state of mind. You can tell it's bothering her as she becomes quiet as soon as we arrive at school and her classmates are ignoring her once again, because the frenemy has decided on it. When I pick her up from school she runs into my arms. I'm genuinely afraid it will crush her spirit completely if she stays in that school for another year.
It's what made me consider homeschooling. I'm still a stay-at-home mom so might as well use my time at home to teach her myself. I can find the perfect way for her to learn things and give her the amount of attention she needs, combined with enough breaks so distractions are kept to a minimum.
Like I said before, she's me, so I know exactly how to handle her. Obviously I'm super insecure about this, wondering if I'll be able to do it, but not trying is just not worth the risk.  

She's already very excited about this, thinking she'll get to spend so much time on her phone. Clearly there will come a time she will regret everything, especially when she discovers nobody will do the work for her. There's still a lot of research that will need to be done, but I'm confident it will be the best thing for her. 

Wish me luck!